Mono Defined

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Now that my trip is so close, I realize I am going to have to spend as much time with family and friends as possible! Once I get on the plane, it’s just me going on this adventure.  No one is coming with me, and yes it seems scary and lonely, but at the same time it’s empowering! I was always scared to be by myself, but then I thought “when will I ever be alone like this again”? For the rest of my life I will be surrounded by friends and family, so I think six months of flying solo will be fine! I’m excited for this experience, of being alone, being mono.

This definition of mono I developed is something I have thought a lot about; not only being alone in terms of my trip but being mono as an individual. Mono is such a strong word if you think about it. Sure it seems simple, mono meaning one, single, lone etc, but when you think it through, it’s everything. Everything in life starts with one and ends with one. We are born as one person, live our one life, and pass as one person. We take our first steps, say our first words and everything in our lives unfolds as we encounter new things. That first experience sets the tone for future encounters. We learn from our own firsts, and it’s those “firsts” that shape us into the person we are. If there were no firsts where would we be?

I started my young adulthood by getting physically and mentally sick (as you all know), but to get over those illnesses I had to look within myself to change, and determine who I want to be and where I want     to go in life. The key to this major breakthrough was me! It wasn’t therapy or medication; ultimately it was me. This is how the ‘mono-meg’ persona came to be! Because of this I am now spreading my wings and flying on my own for my adventure abroad. I wouldn’t have gotten here without this realization. Now I am ready to be by myself and live life to the fullest!

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I am advocating this mono concept because I have realized simply that when it comes down to life it is you alone that lives it. Sure you can be influenced by others and have support and love from family friends, but it is up to you to live the life you want, and take charge and be who you want to be. You can’t wait for life to give you something; you have to find it for yourself. And by being your mono self, you encounter all those firsts that life offers you, and develop into the person you are destined to be. So don’t be afraid to be mono, it’s all you have and it’s all you need.

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BRAVE

My study abroad experience is now becoming (an official) reality! I booked my plane ticket on the weekend and also applied for my work permit!!! I have been planning and applying for this since January of this year and I can’t believe how fast the year has gone. Now that everything is done my nerves are acting up! My family has had to deal with my excitement and nervousness for the past few months (sorry guys) and I know it must be getting tiring. I almost feel like Mrs. Bennett from Pride and Prejudice- “Have you any consideration for my poor nerves!!”My family is definitely Mr. Bennet in this scenario as they would reply (as he did) “You mistake me, my dear. I have the utmost respect for your nerves. They’ve been my constant companion these twenty years” (or in my case the past 23 years!).

So with the excitement comes nervousness and fear. Fear of the unknown, and fearing the mono experience that I have been building up the courage to face. Will I be lonely? Can I be independent? Will I be homesick? Will I make friends? Will I overall like this? I have asked all these questions to myself on a day to day basis ever since I applied. But with these questions, I have tried to suppress and doubt I have in myself and take a leap of faith and be BRAVE. I tell myself “I can do anything!” I need to be confident and go to Sweden without any specific expectations and take it a day at a time and thrive in every moment, whether it’s amazing or challenging. I am ready for whatever comes my way!
So whether it be travelling abroad, applying for a job, going to school or simply going to the dentist there are always challenges that you can face in any situation. But it’s better to take a leap of faith and just do it even if you have the slightest bit of doubt in yourself and the outcome. You will gain a new perspective and a sense of self-worth and independence when you step out of your comfort zone. Just get out there, know what you want, say what you want, and tell yourself to be BRAVE! Take it from Sara Bareilles, she knows what she’s talking about!